Zinda hoon yaar….

When I first heard the song “Zinda Hoon Yaar” by Amit Trivedi from the movie Lootera, I thought what a fatalistic song. The lyrics of the song are: Mujhe chod do mere haal pe, Zinda hoon yaar….Kaafi hai. Translation: leave me alone in whatever state I am… I am alive and that’s enough. I don’t like fatalistic songs and this song made me think…oh what a loser that all he wants to do is live his life the way it is.

But there was something about it that made me go back to it again and again; the background score, the singer, or something else. The beauty of a poem is you can interpret it any which way it pleases you sometimes you interpret it in five different ways depending on your mood. In my current state of mind (running around sorting out my personal and professional life) when I heard this song, I absolutely agreed with the song. The song tells you “leave me alone, I am alive and that should be enough…” When everyone is running in the rat race trying to prove themselves to some corporation, trying to get a higher paying job, a higher figure salary, better benefits; all to improve their quality of life. The life which they are too busy worrying and working for and which they have no time to live! Each of us, including myself is a corporate rat; scurrying around…trying to finish that one last task at the expense of our health and life, living from one weekend to next. Every Friday is the same phrase, “thank god it’s Friday today” and every Monday are the same droll faces with an expression on their face saying “please take me far far away!” I sometimes wonder if everyone collectively hates their job or Monday blues are contagious.

The last line of the song is “kuch mangna baaki nahi, jitna mila…kaafi hai…” translation: I don’t need to ask for anything more, whatever I have received is enough. My life is a constant struggle between needs and wants, and I am sure most of our life is wanting more- I need more clothes, more shoes, more money, more status even more knowledge and more love! For once, I wish I could say I am happy with what I have, and don’t want more.

I wish I could follow this song and say- I am alive and kicking and that’s more than enough!

Have you looked in the mirror lately?

Usually when we look at ourselves in the mirror, we glance at our reflections, think narcissistic thoughts and then forget about it. Have you ever been afraid of looking in the mirror; afraid it will show you more than just your physical aspects? Mirror is not just a piece of glass, it shows you exactly what you are and the substance that you are made of, the inner workings of your heart and mind and your innermost desires.

An old Cherokee story talks about two wolves living within each of us-the bad one which represents our negative aspects and the good one which represents our positive side. The wolf that we feed is the one that dominates our personality. For the more religiously inclined the same story can be translated to the devil and the angel within us, who are constantly clashing for dominance. Within each one of us lies a capacity for tremendous goodness and tremendous cruelty, it all depends on what we choose to see and feed. One only has to look at the world today to realize that nothing can stop a man from being mean, cruel and inhuman. No fear of hell, deity or religion can stop a man from doing what he ultimately wants to do for his pleasure and power. The only check point is a man’s own conscience-that emotion which helps him empathize, look within himself and make him human.

A man’s conscience is his true mirror. Everything good or bad in a person comes from within himself, everything else just augments it. It is what makes him accountable for all his actions-good or bad. A man’s conscience tells him which wolf to feed and which one to starve.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all?